I might be pregnant.
IF we get on the adoption list in March(ish) and IF the baby comes as quickly as Tori did, then I “conceived” this month.? ? And so starts my pregnancy journey once again.
Now this isn’t the “official” announcement.? When I get back on the list next year, I am going to tell you “I AM PREGNANT” and I expect you to take me seriously.? I say this to you because I tend to get a little bit sensitive about my adoption pregnancies “not counting” so I am giving you advanced notice this time.?
In the past, I have gotten on the list while other friends were pregnant and both times, my babies ended up being born first and I found myself saying to everyone “I told you I was pregnant”.? ? I was.
With Ty, we got on the list in July, were matched in December, and Ty was born in January – six month pregnancy.? With Tori, we got on the list after Thanksgiving and she was born Feb 5th – 2 month pregnancy.? Now technically, we could get on the list and wait more than nine months but that hasn’t been our experience so far.
Because my fourth child might be alive and growing right now, it’s time to start praying for protection of baby.? And if you are wondering, no we don’t care if it is a boy or girl.? Part of me is hoping for a boy because I was the only girl growing up and loved it and I think Tori would love it too (and I love boys).? Part of me is hoping for a girl because having a girl has been SO much fun, I can pass Tori’s clothes on, and the room situation would work out better.?? Maybe the Lord will finally just give me twins and I’ll get both.? I wouldn’t mind.? ? I dreamed I had a baby girl with blonde hair this week.? Wouldn’t that be funny?? If I have a fourth child with blonde hair and green eyes I will have covered every hair color and eye color and truly be a rainbow family.? What a palette huh?
So you don’t have to take me seriously yet because today it is only a “might”.? But next time…next time I say it…officially say it…let the party start.?