On my way to church this morning I was feeling a bit overwhelmed. I wanted to go. I wanted to take Tori, Tanner, and Ty because they are in the Christmas Play and were very upset at the idea of not being at practice today. Tori changed her outfit about 3 or 4 times yesterday planning what she would wear to church. On the other hand, Troy really cannot get sick right now. He is at high risk for a feeding tube at the moment and sickness will take it over the top I am afraid. So I left Jim home with the baby hoping that would at least reduce our risk a little bit. I prayed and asked God to cover the baby because making all the right choices for everyone is so hard. We have been raising preemies for 8 years now and ever winter season we go through this dilemma it seems. Tori was hospitalized two winters in a row and we were trying to protect her but it’s difficult and preemies tend to have low reserves.
During my drive, this new song by Sanctus Reel played. Matt Hammitt, the lead singer, brought his 10 week old baby home from the NICU this Thanksgiving after having undergone heart surgery. His little guy was the inspiration for this song.
After an 83 day NICU stay with Ty almost 8 years ago and having a week full of SIX Dr. appointments and several trips to Phoenix Children’s this week (and now an OT eval for Ty at 4:00 today), the words of this song just really move me. This for my preemies today…your gonna have all of me.